Appointment Update

Afternoon! After 3 months of waiting, I was finally able to sit down with a Psychiatrist. I have been really looking forward to this, hoping to get some relief but unfortunately, it was just another hour long session of me saying the same story to the 5th person. At the end of it, I was given a new set of names to contact. I honestly was excited to finally get some real help and thought I finally had reached the end of the red tape if that makes sense.

I left feeling deflated. I was told I had good coping mechanisms in place already, which sucks because I was trying to explain that what I am doing currently clearly is not helping as much as I would like. One thing I will mention is that I was recommended for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which is the second time I was told I need that. I will defenitely look into it, but the DR framed it in a way that left me kind of comfused - he gave me the name of a place to go and said “a dog could teach it.” That does not exactly sell me on attending the program but nonetheless, I am going to look into it. My family doctor also is trying to set me up for Ketamine Therapy but I am apprehensive, due to the potential side affects and just the extreme nature of the treatment. I forsure will do more research before taking that route.

This only furthers my point that our healthcare system is systematically flawed. Months of waiting, being rushed when you finally get a chance and no real answers. The problem is clear, people in similar situations like me are looking for solutions. I have decided to go the private route. While extremely expensive, it is crazy that I found a place that suits what I am looking for that could schedule me the next day. It really sucks that the price to enter into private treatments are so unaffordable for Canadians.

I am going to leave this update with a bit of positivity. On Monday, I was able to have a check in meeting for my new job. I was happy to know that the leadership team see’s good things in me. One thing that stood out was when one of my bosses said that I possess a certain something she can not describe - a certain thing about my character that is outstanding. She also noted that at 24, I think and act like I am 44. Later that evening I met with my realtor who mentioned to my mom that the place I got is very hard to get accepted for, but the way I carry myself is what prompted them to consider me. I take pride in having a good, approachable and meaningful character and to have that reinforced by people who make decisions in your life felt nice to hear. The reason I brought that up is that it is okay to go through things and it is okay to feel beaten down, but to remain dependable, thoughtful and polite will open doors for you. Kindness goes a long way in such a cruel world.

Have a good rest of your day!