The past week

Hello everyone, hope you are having a good start to your weekend.

The past week has not been super eventful to be honest, pretty similar to most weeks, however, I have been finding it particularly difficult this week. I am not sure if it is the change of surroundings/nice weather or what, just feels like something is still missing.

On either tuesday or wednesday, I was having a really bad day, couldn’t focus at work, was very upset and being alone, I obviously did not have any support. That certainly was an adjustment and to be honest I did not handle it well. I made the decision that day to make further changes and I booked private therapy. I started yesterday. I think it went well, it is something I need forsure. The lady was very understanding and nice (You would hope so considering the prices they charge lol) and it seems like she could grasp the type of person I am right away. One thing that stuck out is that I am calm on the outside but have a storm on the inside and that could not describe me better. I am happy that I am at least trying to make a change, not just sit around and let it all consume me because living on my own as well, that is a recipe for disaster.

I went this morning to play pickleball and then went for a run by the beach. It is a nice day out and I need to keep myself occupied so I am glad I did that. England is playing in the World cup tonight so I am going to watch that and hopefully they make it through. Also making some banana bread. Anyways just a short update but just wanted to make sure that I do not sugar coat anything and that is a long road. In the end nobody is coming to save you, so keep working the best you can

Have a nice weekend