My way of combatting stress
Good afternoon everybody. It seems to be never ending unfortunately, but I once again am coming off of a very rough weekend. I think weekends are the worst for me since I do not have anything to keep my mind busy like I do during the week. I did try something new, I planted some flowers and touched up the front yard to try to get my mind off of what has been a nightmare. I do not like to give too much personal info away, but a family member very close to me is very sick and having a really rough go at the moment. The type of person I am, I cannot sit around and not try to do everything I can to help. I put my aspirations to move on pause, thankfully until August. I have signed the lease and can still have that to look forward to but until then I am going to do everything I can to support my family during what is arguably their toughest time of their life.
I get really affected by this kind of stuff. I have been trying to get myself feeling better but there have been some curveballs, like this situation for instance. While I am doing alright to navigate them, I have found things especially difficult lately. Maybe it’s the weather getting nicer having an adverse affect on me, who knows. I do not have an outlet to help quell my frustrations which makes it very difficult for me. I have essentially given this backstory as a means to help understand the cover picture of this post.
I come to this park whenever I need to reflect. That tree reminds me of a more happy time in life and being able to sort of reflect there helps give me some temporary relief. The way I tend to combat stress is by connecting with things that have meaning to me. I am a very sentimental person and find that for me at least, while it does bring out emotions, connecting with small little things that brought me joy helps to clear my head a bit.
It may not work for everyone, but for me it does. That, along with these posts have helped. I am a private person and it took alot of courage to be open in this sense, but find it important to remain honest with myself. I made this section not to sugar coat things, but to give a relatable look for somebody who may not be doing as well as they would like to.
Small things like going to a park is rudimentary to most but for me, takes alot. I have been afraid to leave the house. Unfortunately I do not go out, even going into a store bothers me right now. This has happened once before and it is a hard feeling to describe to somebody who hasn’t felt like that. At that time I had really great supports in place so it has been a challenge. That is not to say I do not have them now, I just need to adjust to a new kind of support that is not necessarily the same. This does not mean I simply will just give up and never go outside again, I just am working up the courage to do it at my own pace.
It is crucial to find your own thing to help you dissect your thoughts, whether that be through sports, art or something like a good memory.
It is a marathon, not a sprint. I find it important to remain true to yourself, as that is the only way you will identify and fix a problem. I have made great strides in terms of finding things that work for me. That in no way shape or form fixes things, but it is a start and I hope anyone reading this can gain the courage to do that as well.
